Morsels From God

2009 has been a hard year for me. Haven’t done too much blogging as I’ve had to deal with personal issues.

October 2, 2009, my husband told me that he wanted out of our 9 year marriage. I was not shocked. He told me when he was drunk, looking at a wall and said, “I want out.” In the past he has always said, “I think I want out.” This time is was different. He had already made up his mind. What could I say but, “OK”. It has been a rough three months for me. Not being sure if I was coming or going. I’ve been over-analyzing everything. It’s been rough and tough…but I know that God is faithful and has been with me every step of the way.

I’ve done a lot of crying. I’ve done a lot of not understanding. I’ve been missing him a lot. I’ve been wondering if he has had a place to sleep. I’ve been wondering if he has food to eat.

I try to look on the positive and up side of all of this. I now have a place to put my car — in the garage where it belongs.

It’s not been fun. I have been abandoned. The only good thing is that I have a great job and fantastic friends…but….I need to keep remembering that the God that brought me through 2009 – is surely going to be bringing me through 2010.